My Testimonial proof that God has an unfailing love for those who seek him.One morning had it in my heart to share my story through a blog, so that it may reach many friends who may desire to hear. MATHEW 19:26 But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, "With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible".
Today while driving my son to school.. ( lots of things seems to manifest while driving my son to school.. my Ezekiel is destine to be great I just know it) .. My son witnessed me waving to a neighbor who was out walking his dogs. He looked at me and asked if that was the police officer that lives across from us.. I said no, that's just a neighbor from the neighborhood. Then puzzled he continues... How do you know all these people?! How do you just walk up to people and like that get to know them? After a chuckle .. I replied.. Son, I don't know, know him.. in fact I couldn't even tell you his name. All I know is he is a child of God.. weather he knows it or not.. and I want to greet him with the light of Jesus.. cause there may be a day, when I do actually speak to him.. and I want him to know and understand.. the Jesus in me. He was still puzzled and said , " Mom I just wanted to know how you got to the point of walking up to him and saying hi".( my lil impatient son) I told him, I haven't.. I don't need to. He simply waves back because its a "friendly gesture".. My purpose is to continue to shine the light for those who walk in the dark. I always want to put my Jesus foot first! He just smiled and nodded. I think he will mediate on this a little today.
Matthew 16:24 Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man would come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.
I LOVE LOVE this verse... I always pray to have a heart that is inclined to follow Christ, even when it seems scary or an impossible mission, the reason.. is because the victory is already won! Amen!
Thank you for reading
May God Bless you on your journey and tug on your heart
Like most my dreams there is color, and temperature and sound.
In this dream I was flying out of my body..
I flew to Germany.. I flew to visit my ex-husbands family.
During my flight I flew over a group of butterflies/ possibly moths that were marching back and forth on the sidewalk ( kind of like ants do back and forth to their colony). Theses butterflies had pieces of material attached to their wings... like an extension of their wings but the wing was material.. like fabrics.. all sorts of sheers and silks and soft flowy fabric. The fabric was floating straight up as the wings would.. I wondered how that was happening but didnt pay much mind, I did however ask" what are they doing" ( who did I ask? I dunno) But I got an answer.. not in a voice.. just in a knowledge.. that they were mating. I said to myself.. oh. and then proceeded to fly on. I flew into the house of my past marriage, it was modern day and time. As I sat and watched the current family there, (ex's new wife and small children) I noticed that My ex could see me. Although he was forbidden to acknowledge me. I asked out loud, "you can see me cant you?" and he nodded yes. The family continued to function regularly over the course of the meal.. Next came in my ex mother in law. She was accompanied by a friend who brought with her a dress.. a most beautiful dress.. it was made with this beautiful burgundy material that I actually own. I remember looking at it in the dream trying to figure out how it was made so I could recreate it. ( at this point I think I was realizing its a dream about a dress i need to make). I had to leave cause morning was coming here back in Tx.. So I said good bye to my ex.. reminded him to smile, saying " God has made every day special, try to enjoy it.. smile a little more"... and I left. As I was coming back to my home.. I flew back over the area where the butterflies were.. only now there lay bundles of butterflies and fabric. I asked again " what happened, what are they doing'. The understanding came again not in a voice really just in a knowledge.. " They have died. This is the natural life span.. they emerge.. they fly around doing what they know, then they reproduce and die. They accomplish their purpose." ... I said.. " ok". Then the knowledge said " you may take the fabric now and use it " . So I did. I began to float back home....
When my daughter woke me ... " MOM!" .. I was startled cause I had slept past my wake up time. I asked her if it was time for the bus already.. and she told me no... then I said Im sorry for not waking up earlier.. Then I asked what is it that she wanted.. She said ...
"Mom there is a butterfly in our house!!"
Indeed there was a butterfly flying above my sewing area.
Transformation..... God I pray your will be done, and you transform me to be less of me and more of you. Thank you for this dream.. thank you for this experience. I pray to learn more of what your plans are for me, and pray for the wisdom and patience to follow them. Amen.
Thank you for sharing with me on my transformation.
May God bless you and enlighten you daily on yours.
A quick note about what it is to just BE... and not so much do!
So like most of my blogs this one comes from an email conversation I had with a friend. Whats important here is the context of what was written. I often find that my knowledge and ability to put my faith and My Jesus into words comes when I am speaking to others about them. Below is excerpts from that email...
God is good all the time... so just have faith and seek him with your whole heart.... then you will find him. Take 15 min out of your day every day to just sit in the silence and meditate on his love, on his majesty.. he is the creator of all things.. he is woven into all things.. if you take just 15 min sit in your car in the lot.. and close your eyes.. and just be in his presence... I guarantee things in your life will become more clear... and Gods plan for you and your family will start to reveal itself.. ...I challenge you to do this. :)
I tried the 15 minutes thing and it works, it was one of the things I learned in our bible group. But there is one really important question he (God) doesn't seem to answer. It is almost as if he is either letting me decide on my own or He is telling both options I have are just as good as it is bad... I don't know, I don't really get a real picture. So, as I am finshing this email, I am going to talk to my chaplin. He and I started talking the other day and he said that perhaps I am not liking what God is telling me and I am refusing to hear it. So I am going down in the next few minutes to see if he if there is anything I can do to hear what I may not want to. Funny hu?
Well.. this is what I've learned about "Gods answers"... sometimes we aren't really listening to them, because we just want it broken down to plain YES or NO.
Sometimes.. its more complicated then that..
God answers always this is the truth..... just not in the way we want.. remember HIS ways are not our ways.. but they are always the BEST ways. Amen!
In order to hear God, you have to be in his presence... its like being in another level of consciousness. Then we must stand on his promises to us.. in order to do this... you have to know what they are. When we live in his word.. his promises.... can now take shape and manifest in our hearts and minds.. allowing us to experience that special relationship with GOD. Where in that relationship He does speak very bluntly and obvious to us.
It takes time.. and it takes ... being still and knowing he is God.
In life I am know I am often too focused on the doing doing doing of life.. doing the right thing for my business, doing this to help that, doing it all so it is done.. doing doing... We need to take time to just BE.. be in this state of mind where we are connecting to everything and everything is connecting to us.. then we realize that , that is a connection with God. Its just BEing still and knowing he is there.. then like that our eternal being is awaken and it then can guide our primal being. Its really amazing! Yet so hard to find the time to do.. er be.. :)
Lastly ... sometimes I have to remind myself that there are going to be times when His answer is just flat out NO. And I know when he is saying no.. because nothing will fall into place when i take steps in that direction of which he is saying NO to. In my stubbornness I say.. "God hasn't answered me yet, so I'm going forward" .. then nothing works out right.. and I realize ok.. ok.. Im turnin round. The moment I do that.. all things start to fall into a better place then before.
I know when I am on Gods path for me, because of two things..
1: Great blessings and 2: Great trials. It sounds nuts.. but its totally true.
Finally... realize.. that if you keep your eyes, mind and heart focused on having a relationship with him.. this means; putting him before your needs,desires, and other family members.... he will bless you with an answer and then some! Then all those other things.. family, money, desires.. etc. will fall into place and be better then you ever thought it could be.
God is a master in making a way where there seems to be no way.
We just have to learn to reprogram our way of thinking... and be a little patient.
Try to just BE.... and leave the "Doing" to Him.
This is called FAITH.
Thank you for sharing in my journey. May God always bless you along yours.
PS: Great documentary I saw on Quantum Physics. Seems like science is getting in line with what has always been. Great things happening here... its all about reprogramming. Take time to watch it.. very interesting indisputable stuff here! I call it GOD.. I call it Jesus! Eventually science will proclaim the same in a more pronounced way... yep.. it'll catch on.
21Then Peter came and said to Him, “Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me and I forgive him? Up to seven times?” 22 Jesus said to him, “I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven.
My Mother...
Many trials in her life have left her scared with strife
Many hurts and many pains has left her with very little in gains
Because of unwise choices, deceitful delight,
many tears fell silently... painfully... in the night
And in time both hearts died, first her's.... then mine
But God is good all the time!
Now a relationship once convinced of the darkness
has sparked and rekindled its sweetness!
A child who once cried out in affliction
Now see's the woman and not the addiction!
A woman who once walked in the night
Now sweetly sings in the light...
That women, My Mother...
Sent me a Birthday card Today!!
Todays Blog I dedicate to my Mother who is the chosen parent of my life. God is good all the time, and He knew me then as he knows me now... He knew who I needed in my life and he placed them there. Praise God.
My Mother, wasn't always there for me in the traditional sense.... but that's ok. She showed me the things in life I needed to know and see in order to get me to be me.(if that makes sense) God always held me, even when I was not seeking him. For a long time I had pain and anger for choices my parents made, I was sad and often felt alone. I was able to pull myself through those times and realize that I didnt have to hold on to that pain... I didnt have to hold on to the darkness. I learned to forgive. I forgave my parents for their life choices and more than that I have been able to show empathy for both. I know God see's their pain, and I know he is with them as he has always been with me. I forgave my Mother many years ago, but it has only been recently in the past year.. with Gods mercy and grace.. that she and I have been able to really share words of love. I love her today more than yesterday.. and I am working on a relationship with her. To God be the glory.
In the bible it says to forgive 490 times.. what Jesus is saying is .. there is no limit to how much we should forgive. When we forgive... we really do it for us. We are not saying (by forgiving) that what a person has done or done to you was/is right or ok. .. we are simply saying " I dont have to allow it to hurt me".
When we chose to withhold forgiveness from one another, we not only are saying I want to hold this person in a perpetual state of guilt and shame... but also that we want to prolong our own suffering. We are making the choice to victimize ourselves. By holding onto the grudge of pain we are encasing it and essentially a part of us prisoner. To forgive is to release the pain, the suffering, the ugliness.. and suffer never more from it.
when we forgive others we free ourselves from all the suffering... all the pain.. all the anger.. alll the bitterness and resentment, its those very things that keep us from enjoying the blessings of peace we have before us today. Forgiveness is for us.
I think about how God forgives.. and how my sins have been forgiven... I think about how I have made mistakes with my children, and thought... I hope they forgive me.
Love lives in forgiveness.
My relationship and love with my mother lives in our forgiveness... and today for the FIRST time in many of my adult years... she sent me a birthday card! This is a big deal, and really special. It filled my heart with joy and my eyes with tears. I'm so thankful and so grateful to know forgiveness and now her Love.
Forgiving shouldn't be associated with "bowing out" , rather it should be correlated with being of strength and of love.
Thank you so much for sharing my journey.
May God bless you
I watched a great great film on the power of forgiveness. Lots of great messages here and even scientific proof that anger and not forgiving can harm us internally. I found the film on netflix, but its also for 3bucks rental on youtube. check it out.. and walk away feeling ready to forgive it all.
Greater things are yet to come... Greater things are yet to be done, in this city..
Wow! I am so happy to know that Our God is such a great God, and that He is with me always. So last update I told you that I was going to give some "God stories". I will have you know.. many many take place in my life every day.. most on what some would say "small scale" but to me anytime God is blessing me and my day, it isnt a small thing.
Today I am gonna share with you two stories.. that kind of have to do with one another.
First as I mentioned a few blogs back, that God has really be aiding me in this sewing venture. About a lil over two weeks ago I kicked off the start of Roo's Fashions. Which is my new clothing and accessories line. In just that short of time, God has really been making stuff open up and form. This would include upgrading my knowledge on the "art of sewing". (remember I am a self taught seamstress aka sew person lol) When I sit down to sew, I always am listening to worship music.. and I really get into singing to God. I know he hears me and sings back, cause some songs I don't even realize I am crying while singing. lol. With my singing I also pray while sewing. This reminds me of what Paul the Apostle wrote in 1 Thessalonians 5: 16-18...
"16 Rejoice always, 17 pray continually, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus "
In my heart and throughout the day and on my tongue I am in worship or praise or prayer of some kind almost always. Sewing is no exception. I pray over every project I begin, and pray for my work to be parallel to Gods will, and that whomever purchases the item, would be touch and inspired to know God. He has guided me and given me great ideas for dresses that I would not have even thought I could do. Lately my dress designs have come to me in dreams, or images that I get in the midst of my sleep. I believe these images are given to me by God. His way of helping me and holding me and telling me I am capable of more. Why I say that is because the dress designs He shows me are usually way beyond "my" sewing knowledge. lol. Still, When I sit down in faith, the dress seems to manifest on its own really. When things get too tough or confusing... I always speak God provision Philippians 4:13.....
13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me,
And I do, because He does.
Now my next story.. This one is FUN!
This morning like almost every morning... I woke up with a song in my heart. The song is by Blue Tree song: God of this City. Great song! So I was driving back from taking my son to school..( which just a side note: was a pleasant ride, in mornings this is rare. Everyone woke up in a great mood, even the twins! My son was ready on time and very humble. Trinity woke up late but was able to calmly get ready in enough time and she even wore here girlie shoes, which is a bid deal! LOL ) So this song comes on the radio, and I was all about it!! Turned that puppy up and started worshiping and singing.. the twins even started in with me with hands lifted high! It was awesome. As I was singing I was reflection on what the lyrics meant to me.. Now I know that when the artist wrote the song he was in a foreign country looking out into the brothels and seeing all the children and all the sin, he kept peace by singing these lyrics "greater things are yet to come, greater things are still to be done.. in this city". This is awesome and reassuring to keep in heart, that God see's it all... and he is constantly working and weaving it all into a plan. He is not done yet.. there are greater things yet to come, on earth and in heaven. Amen!
I like to also reflect this song to a more personal level while I sing it.. I see myself as "the city". Jesus says in Matthew 4:14
“You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden;"
I desire to live my life as this. A light in the world, a city on a hill. Still sometimes I get unsure of myself.. sometimes I question if I'm making a mistake with this clothing venture, sometimes I wonder if anyone will even care or desire to get the "bigger message" . That's when I remember that God is not done with me yet.. and greater things are yet to come, greater things are yet to be done in THIS city. Praise God!!
So the fun part of this is... I went to get some coffee in the morning before getting my son to school. At the Valero station, i bought coffee and some doughnuts for the kiddos. I pulled a 20$ from the profits that I had earned from Roo's Fashions. I was kinda feeling guilty cause I kinda made a mental promise that the money that Roo's made would not spend for anything other than 1- more material 2- Gods will in ministry which could be tithing, outreach, donation, helping someone etc. Yeah and here I was buying doughnuts and coffee.. it gets worse.. I also purchased lottery scratch offs with the money!!ugh!! lol. I am not a gambler per say.. lol.. but i do like to have fun with a few scratch off's here and there. I like every once and again picken up a few, so its not surprising or out of the ordinary that I would do this.. just bummed that i did it with the money I kinda dedicated to those two things. So anywho.. that was early morning before taking the boy to school.... now I was on my way back listening to this song (God of this city) and two great things happened.... One, as i was driving past the gas station on my road.. a lil girl probably 3-4yrs old was just wondering around the lot.. there were not many cars so it was easy to see her.. she was just dancing around ballerina style. So here I am listening to this song.. singing.. crying.. and then as almost in slow motion a lil girl dancing in the middle of a gas station all alone.! I came to a complete stop! ( thank God no cars were behind me) And i just stared at her... I wondered where her parents were.. and if I should get out and help her so she didn't walk out into traffic.. and at the same time I was in awe and just stared ... Finally! her mother showed up from out of a car that was parked along side the station.. and she just yelled (not even walked/ran to her) just yelled and motioned her to get in the car. At that moment another vehicle pulled in and almost hit her as she fell while running to her mom. (of course I almost jumped out my skin) The car stopped and the lil girl did get up and was safe. As I drove off i thought wow!! I wish i could have done something... at very least hugged her. Then I came back to this song.. and remembered God is still working here.. He was there.. That vehicle didn't hit her.. and even though this lil girl apparently didnt have a mother with the primal instinct of a mother lioness to protect her cub!.. she was still able to find happiness and joy as she danced and twirled across the lot. I imagine God holding her hand as she danced.. amazing.
Now back to the scratch off's.. I finally get home and after settling in I get to my coffee and decided I am going to blog about what I just saw.. but before that, I prayed.. (as i do always before writing a blog). I thought about that lil girl and thought about my dresses and just thought about a way to make a difference in a place that sometimes seems so dark. How can I be the light Lord? Do I really have what it takes?.. is this what you really want for me to do? Its been moving quickly but the funds are coming slowly.. .. Amen! ( ok there was more in there lol but you get the gist) lol. NOW.. SCRATCH SCRATCH SCRATCH.. 5 bucks off a 1 dollar ticket!! woo hoo!!.. then nothing .. nothing.. and now $100..wha!! and then $100 whoa!... and $100 again!! wow!! I couldn't believe it!! 300 buck-a-roos on one ticket!!! wow, well of course I started crying and praying and thanking God.. not cause I am in need of money.. trust me my life is blessed and I never pray for prosperity really. I always tell God that I am ok with just enough. Still I couldn't help but feel like this all tied in. Like God was saying YES!! Amber you have the heart!! You are My light!! Go with it!! Be my city on a hill, and know that GREATER THINGS ARE YET TO COME AND GREATER THINGS ARE STILL TO BE DONE IN THIS CITY!!! Holy smokes!! Is God amazing or what!!!??!
Now don't get me wrong, I am not saying ya'll should run out and buy lottery tickets.. lol. I'm not supporting gambling or whatever.. lol. And NO God doesn't need to use scratch off's to talk to me.. but He is a GOOD GOD, all the time, and is able to make all choices I make in my life mold-able to shine His glory!! He replaced that 20$ I was feeling guilty about and gave me more to remind me greater things are yet to come.. maybe not prosperity wise.. and I'm ok with that.. but that Roo's Fashions and the dreams and the outreach are going to produce the light! Amen!! This is great news!! God always shows me how much he loves me, to a point where I walk in a constant comfort! Its amazing! Yes, like anyone I may have my "days".. but then I remember ... There is still work that He is doing .. in THIS city! In ME!
Thank you so much for reading and sharing this moment with me!
God bless YOU!
PS: If you are interested in checking out my site and Roo's Fashions heres the link!
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