Cause Gods ways are not my ways. He will answer prayers but in the way He knows they need to be answered.
Isaiah 55:9 For [as] the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.
His ways are NOT my ways.
Rest in Yahweh, and wait patiently for him
Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him.
Sitting up in my loft... I thought I should pray.. then I thought, How? I don't have the words right now to pray. Often when I dont have the words, I sing. So I turned on my favorite station.. K-LOVE then turned on my sewing machine. As i began to sew.. the song I posted above, is what started to play. Slowly.. slowly.. the tears came.. then I wept .. not just on the outside.. but on the inside.. I cried like a child who had lost their parent. Alone... lost... sad.. scared.. ... I cried..
"God.. where are you?" .. "where did you go?"... "Father why cant I feel you?"... "Dont .. ...leave...me". ....
I was trying to figure out the right things to say, the right prayers to pray. I was trying all too logically to "help" my family come to accept Jesus.. that I became my own problem. I am not responsible directly for their salvation. They are! I need to be a servant to the Lord and my family and through Christ Jesus, His power will shine and help them. Not me, not in My way or My idea of "time frame".
Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.